Saturday, January 29, 2005

hunny just wrote me a song because he knows i'm feeling poopy.

lemonade hunny....

silly friends are the bestest at making me non-grumpy

I*****: bounce boo to the boogie that be!
I*****: you know i want you to come boogie with me!
m******: boogie boogie!
I***: we can dip left, slide right all night
m******: like to booooogie!
I*****: BOOOOOOGIE!
m******: bboooooooogers
I*****: it's time to be wiiiiiiild, freeeestyle!
m******: hahahhaha
I*****: b-b-b-boooooooogers

i ruv ru!

one of the things we started in college...candle nights. where we would just light a buncha candles, get some wine coolers (ok we were weak sauce 21 year olds back then) and just chat the night away. play some erasure or sarah mclaughlin in the background. i miss those. tonite i'm gonna do another candle nite. i've done that a couple of times while in pitts. is it weird that i like to light candles, drink some good wine and mebbe watch a movie my myself? sometimes i think it's good to just have some alone time, relax, reflect. people seem to think that when i do a candle night, i'm depressed. but i'm not, far from it actually. it's just something i like to do from time to time. maybe cuz it reminds me of when i used to have those nites with the LA roomies. :)

bigfoot sighting at starbucks!

so i was sitting in starbucks and i saw a bigfoot! haha...well actually it was a guy dressed in a gorilla suit who was trying to get weird reactions with people. but the video clip i took only looked like something dark and hairy in the background. it looked like those videos you see of bigfoot sightings... where you can see a fuzzy shape walking in the dark but can't really tell what it is. i tried to upload it to jusspress...but ryan still needs to make the video loader compatible for macs. hurry up ryan! as a mac person..you would think he would get the mac compatibility up and running sooner. :-p

anyways...

i'm pmsing. we were watching dodgeball yesterday and i felt like crying. that's how i know when i'm pmsing...i feel like crying over stupid things and everything seems to bug me.

like for instance, i hate my crappy compaq laptop. it seems llike whenever i pull it out to try to use it, it pisses me off. some stupid person designed the USB port badly and the portable USB drive i have doesn't fit. also i somehow got spyware on it and all these useless pop ups show up all the time. i'm sure i could stop those, but it seems this time i got something really nasty and hard to uninstall. either that or i'm just too impatient and pissed off to uninstall it. crappy PC's. i love my apple powerbook. it has never dissappointed me. :)

since there are many things that are buggin today...i think i'll make a raspberries list. (in HS there was a column in the school newspaper - roses to good things, raspberries to bad things)

raspberries to:
-ice on sidewalks. every time i walk to school i slip at least 5 times and feel like i'm gonna fall and crack open my skull.
-messy kitchen people. there are constant notes left to clean up yet sometimes people are just too lazy to clean up. and i realize that people get too busy to clean. understandable to leave dishes until the next day (although i try not to do that) i know i myself am guilty of leaving some dishes sometimes. but to make up for it i cleaned up other people's crap so many times. and yet it doesn't seem like too many other people do this in the house. i think there should just be a general rule. if you see something messy and you have some time. clean it! and clean it well. no just wiping really quick with a towel and it's still messy. we live in a house with a lotta people and everyone has to pitch in.
-pms - of course
-studying when i want to go out
-long distance relationships
-missing my hunny
-girly magazines that make me feel blobby
-not being in cali
-being away from family
-feeling like crying for stupid reasons
-PC and Mac incompatibility
-not having an ipod
-weak internet reception in my room
-feeling stressed about finding an internship
-feeling like i need to make a raspberry list

ok..i'll feel better eventually, promise. i think it's just one of those days i could really use a mom hug. those are the best...

*roses to hugs from people i love*

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

it's official

"Congrats - you have been elected as officers for the VC and PE Club.

President - Melanie ****, Vice President - Shamir ****, Treasurer - Jared *****.

Let me know what times you are available in the next 3 days so we can discuss an orderly transition."

=D yay!


also...lazy people who want me to do all their networking for them really BUG. there is this other girl here who also wants to do VC stuff. but she doesn't go to any panels or forums. partially she just doesn't know about them. however all she has to do to find out about them is to join the VC club and the entrepreneurship club....which she hasn't done. but whenever i tell her about an event, she says " i'll try to go" but she doesn't ever make it. yet she asks me to tell her when all the events are. who does she think i am? i'm here to hold her hand???!! she's even asked me to collect cards for her at the things i go to ??!!! WTF...i'm not doing all this work just so someone else can have it a lot easier. it takes so much time to network and find out about events, talk to profs, talk to people at functions, follow up. and she wants me to do it for her? she doesn't even bother to do the minimum and talk to the profs to find out what she should be doing. and she's also dating this oaf of a guy that most people don't really like here. but he was an ibanker in NYC before school so he has a lot of connections. so she's been getting investment banking interviews (since another way to get into VC is to go through ibanking) at large banks because of him and i could bet you a million dollars he does her homework too because he's just that kind of a pushover when it comes to girls. i kinda think she's dating him for the job and school benefits. but i don't know how much of that is true tho...since no matter how hard up i was about VC stuff...there is no way in a million years i could even force myself to date this guy. bleh..mebbe she sees something in him i don't. mebbe she likes hairy backs. u know she shaved his back for him....ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Monday, January 24, 2005

MP3 player woes

arg.....

i almost never change the music on my mp3 player due to laziness. but today i wanted to change it to add some songs that warren gave me. but little did i know it would be so hard! first i looked for my dazzle 6 in 1 media reader and i thought i needed the CD to install it on my powerbook. but oh no! the CD was cracked during the move! then i try to download it, and discover that the powerbook should not need anything installed to use the media reader. but then i try to add songs with the media reader and get a "not enough space" message. what??!! this was after i already deleted the existing songs on the card. so i put back the deleted songs, and get the same message, but somehow the songs still show up on the card even after the error message. then i try to play those songs...not playing! so now i've lost the songs on my media card. the only songs i can hear are stored in the mp3 player's memory and not in the media card. that means only 256 memory of songs. boooooo........

i want an ipod

hunny says i should save my money

drat

i want an ipod. :(:(:(

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

over and over again....

who woulda thought a rap singer and a country singer could sound so good together?

can't go on without luvin youuuuuu.........

too much work to do!

akkk...i have so much emailing to do it's ridiculous. then add HW, and preparing a plan to set up a venture fund here at cmu. why did i miss school again? why do i forget how much i dislike homework so quickly? haha. oh a good note, i now know i'm officially on the VCIC team (only 5 students chosen from the first years and second years). this team is going to go to boston and compete against harvard and MIT for a venture capital investment competition. yay!

however ...since i'm taking over president duties, this also means i need to be present during a competition CMU will be having during spring break. this means no going home for spring break. boooooo..... :(

all this work better be worth it!

my first class in early stage funding was today. very kool speaker who happened to be someone i already networked with. haha....always gotta keep one step ahead of my prof.

i miss hunny ...LD sucks.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

back from Utah!



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The view of the conference room in utah.


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The convention was EXCELLENT! i saw so many speakers from the industry. one person was even a manager of over 33 billion. yess billion...not million. the CEO of a major bank was there, the CEO of overstock.com, as well as many general partners and founding partners of VC firms from utah, NYC and the silicon valley. Most of the firms were smaller however we did see a few larger ones. i learned sooooo much. it was basically a cram session on Venture Capital, Private Equity and Entrepreneurship. each day began at 8 or 9 in the morning with panels and speakers starting rite away and lasting until 5 or 5:30. There were even speakers while we ate lunch. at 5 we were to go to another location for dinner where we had another speaker while we ate. This would last until about 9:00. as if that wasn't enough to tire me out, i was networking like crazy the whole time. met some really amazing people...not just VC people but extremely accomplished students from other schools as well. i must say, going to this conference has motivated me to start a venture fund at cmu. i think we have all the rite resources and environment to make it happen. however this means a lot more work for me...and we all know that i just love more work. (ok well i don't really but i just kinda get involved in things by accident. haha...can't help it!) i still need to see if it's possible first. i know students last year tried and it just didn't take off. so i need to find out what hurdles they had. i talked to the current pres of the VC club and it seems i've been selected to be next year's pres. need to meet with him to discuss the transition. that sounds kool huh? pres mel :)

on another note..looks like i didn't get that burrrrilll internship. booooo.....got an email and it seems like they will not be hiring an intern this summer. i'm assuming their budget has changed and now it doesn't allow for the cost of an intern. i'm pondering asking them if i can work for free. it would be a great learning experience. however money would be nice also....

got back to school...already homework is due. lucky for me my friends got my back and did most of the assignment. but i'll be sure to cover for them as well. yanni's gf is coming next weekend so i'll cover his part. gotta love group work. i kinda feel like i'm playing catch up tho...even though i only missed 2 days of class. i hate feeling like i don't know what's going on. it's like dreaming that you have a test you didn't study for.

found out T got engaged. seems like people were all surprised he popped the question after only a year. but i was not really surprised. he's always known what he wanted and always just goes for it once he knows. always been a good quality of his. and i'm happy for him. truly happy. i had wondered how i would feel once he fell in love with someone else. wondered if i would be jealous. but instead...i'm glad, almost relieved. i think i always felt he wanted to see something in me that wasn't there. and i wanted so much to give that something to him...but i couldn't. so i'm glad and happy that he has found someone who can, because he deserves nothing less. best wishes to you and your fiance T.

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

winter break



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ahh back to school already. so sorry that i haven't written to update all of you. as you can tell...i had other things on my mind. vacation!!!!

highlights from vacation:
-got home and went to a frank's engagement party and hunny's housewarming/cathy's bday party. twas nice to see everyone rite when i got home. some people i need to hang out with more often. sorry cathy and aymerik! we tried to make it back in town for racelettes but there was just too much snow!
-had a wonderful xmas with my family. thanks ryan for the powerpoint remote! nerd as i am, i loved it!
-had an even more wonderful anniversary with hunny in tahoe. hunny made me this AWESOME scrapbook. it was soooo cute! all the pictures and things he put in it had a story behind it. i could tell it took him so much time and care to make. even all the ticket stubs in it (from all the movies we've gone to) had little borders put around them! i will cherish this forever and ever and ever and ever....
-saw the whole fam ( aunts, uncles, cousins and all!) for dimsum. it's been a long while since we have done that. i hope we can do it again the next time i go home. :)
-hung out with mom, dad and jon a whole lot. they helped me find some good power suits. dad likes to dress up his shun dut lieu. i miss talking with my mom so much. but i got to show her some new places to eat. yum! santa ramen!
-visited companies for my school's west coast trip. (IBM Extreme Blue, IBM Life Sciences, Chiron, Genentech, KcKesson) the person that spoke to us from Genentech was so kool that he even said whenever I was in town, for me to go have lunch with him so he could follow how my career was going. however as a result of speaking with him, i'm now considering getting a masters also in biomedical engineering while i'm here. i think i'm gonna try for VC first, and if i don't get it, go for the masters. because if i can get it without the masters, then i'd rather save on the tuition. another option is to just do the masters part time on the CMU west coast campus.
-had dinner with warren, jimmy and diana at Fringale where i had an EXCELLENT dinner of salmon and king mushrooms. mmmmmmm... it was so nice to do our yearly get together around xmas time. it's amazing how far we have all come. jimmy is traveling around the world for his job, diana is a big patent lawyer, warren is doing well at cisco and engaged to be married this summer!
-karin and steve got engaged! or well they got engaged before this week but announces it on saturday. congrats!!! i think it's so kool that they were best friends since they were 12 and now they are getting married.
-back to school and things are getting hectic already. i'm headed off tomorrow morn at 7:30 for a VC conference in Utah. all the top schools converge in Utah at UPES for this conference. i get to go boarding there too! yay! will be back on sunday.


other ramblings...
so many people are getting engaged and married. yet i feel like my mind is just not there yet since i am still in school and have so much more to accomplish. also...what if i decide to do an additional masters? but shouldn't i be thinking about marriage and things? when will my personal life be a priority and school and work second? what happens when i have a family? will i be able to change? sigh...many things on my mind lately. churning and churning. need to make sense of it all. feels like my life can turn any which way rite about now. especially when it comes to internships...i'm getting nervous about being able to secure a VC internship.

it was so nice to have a vacation...i think i felt so burned out after the first semester. so many people asked how i liked school. and i do have to say i love it. but also the work load can be a real downer. now i feel recharged. ready for what's to come. i'm going to run for president of the VC club. and i'm also going to set up a series of VC visits in the area. wish me luck!