it's just a feeling

i've been known to have lists for everything. what i want in a school, what i want in a job, what i want in a bf, what i want in a marriage.

what i've noticed is that even with all these lists, i tend to go with a feeling. whatever feels right isn't always what's on my lists.

lately i've been feeling like what i thought i wanted isn't what i really want at all.

maybe it's like thousand year old egg. i hated eating it as a kid. but i really like it now.